One of Those Days

Hi Everyone

Do you ever just have one of those days where you get to the point where the sun is setting, you've not yet turned on your lights and just sit there and listen to what's going on in your mind.

Recently so much has gone on that I haven't managed to catch my breath or when I do I just end up wallowing in the memories and thoughts that I avoid day by day.

Nothing particularly awful has happened recently but I'm just sad.

We're of a disposition where we just go straight to autopilot and carry on as normal. I struggle to do that. I don't particularly have a bad life if anything it's better than most. I have a good job, good family and a happy relationship. But sometimes I just want to be sad.

I've always been the type who likes her own space, to just sit in my room and allow the guilty pleasures that I'm sometimes embarrassed of. One of those being having a good cry.

I've noticed recently that I'm just not as happy as I'm expected to be. Simple things are getting me going and I can't stop myself from getting worked up and bursting into tears. I mostly do it in private but I do sometimes let it all out with Toby.

I think I just wanted to put it out there that we all need to have our moments where we feel our pain and don't bottle it up. 

We live in a society where if we start getting upset people can't cope with you and instantly think "what's her problem". 

We have to stop this and just sometimes have a "good cry".

Does anyone else do this? 

Let me know your thoughts or even better sit down for a moment, take off that mask and just let it all out. You will feel awful during but after it's such a release you'll feel so much better for it.

Know that people out there do love and care for you too.

Mybbs xx