Feeling Festive

Hi Everyone

So it's a Wednesday the 19th November and it's official...... I've got that Festive feeling!

Now I've been denying myself to get excited for Christmas since the end of halloween. It's not that I'm a scrooge but I feel you can only allow yourself to get into the spirit as early as the 1st December.

But I just couldn't help myself. The more I shop, watch christmassy adverts and sign for those all important deliveries destined for my loved ones the feeling just overwhelms me.

Now because I think it's a bit silly going all out in November (I'll start the decorating on the 1st December) I've started by adding hints and preparing for it.

I found these adorable festive sheets in Primark for £16. Now these we're essential, they're a luxury as I could only use them for a certain season but they'll last me years

I also spotted this cute tree decoration in Wilkos for £4. I love anything rustic looking so it went straight into my basket. It's now on my window sill until I get "fully festive" in December.

In terms of clothing I spotted a couple of bits in Primark I just couldn't resist. Firstly this cute bobble hat! I love that it's neutral so will go with a majority of stuff and with wavey or curled hair it's beyond cute. Decided to have a cheeky instagram moment with it!

Finally I needed a new christmas jumper. Only reason being is my current one isn't really PG rated so thought this one was cute. The hat bobble and holly berries are sewn on for a 3D effect so I couldn't resist. 

Once December hit next week I'll be well and truly "decking my halls" and I can show you what my mum does with the whole house. 

I love how us Lawson's decorate for Christmas so I'll show you once it's done!

MYBS xxx

Positivity

Hi Everyone

Have you ever had one of those days, weeks or even months where everything is just rubbish!

Well I've had an awful time recently.

Not particularly in my personal life but in my working life.

I work in a tough sales environment where I had a rubbish month and a half where I was getting NOTHING! 

No matter how many viewings I booked or how much time I spent with my customers I just couldn't get a sale!!!!

Now my livelihood depends on selling otherwise I don't get paid so I was spending hours at work then coming home and literally balling my eyes out and hiding my emotions at work but there's no denying my positivity died.

I was putting on a front at work where I'd walk through the door with a fake smile and putting in so much effort but without much substance.

This all came to a head last week. It started with my 1 to 1 with my manager where I broke down. I was sitting out in the back office balling.

They had noticed I would be sitting at my desk and the negativity was palpable. A girl I work with said on a few occasions that it looked like I was about to cry..... which I was. Luckily she knew what kind of person I am. I keep my mouth shut and plod along feeling unhappy. So she spoke to my manager about how I was feeling because she knows I'm a big scaredy cat.

My problem is I'm so hard on myself that I feel I'll be moved or fired like I've heard many people in my industry have suffered and been forced to do. But with the support of my manager we pinpointed my issues and from that have hopefully solved the problem.

I'm not going to lie I had another good 2 cry's that day and from that my attitude has changed. I feel I'm more positive and from that am now achieving.

So I feel I've learnt that I have to be more honest because positivity is something you can lose by letting the things that are making you feel down fester.

So speak to your friends, your family or like I did my boss to put your mind at rest and bring back your positivity.

Stay strong

Mybs xxx

My Piercings and Tattoos

Hi Everyone

Let me begin by saying this post is just showing people my tattoo and piercings and all of these we're thought through and not done on the spur of the moment. Make sure if you want anything done you think it through carefully.

When it comes to piercings you can just take them out if you're not happy, but when it comes to tattoos you need to really think hard about it. I thought about mine for over a year and I haven't regretted it for a moment.

One important thing is get recommendations from your peers who have a tattoo or piercing to find a reputable shop near where you live. I've been lucky and gone to the same place for everything and never once had an issue. My sister on the other hand got a piercing when she was 14 from a known dodgy place (as they did them for under 16's without consent) and it got infected. It was not pretty!

Finally keep up with the after care the piercer or tattoo artist gives you. They do know best and it will make the healing process alot faster. So let me show you what I've had done.

First lets start with my tattoos. Now you're probably thinking "stars.....everyone has stars". To some extent you're correct but for me and my sister Anna these stars have a deep significance. After our dad passed away we wanted to have something as a little reminder for us but not make it so obvious to others so it can be special just for us. The largest star represents our dad and the slightly smaller one overlapping is our mum. the 3 stars to the left are my sister, me and whoever our significant others are. As my sister was married at the time and we wanted the same tattoo I decided to get the extra too. But it won't be fully assigned until someone "puts a ring on it" :-P

Next and more recently I got this arrow tattoo on my ribs. Again this has a substantial amount of significance in my life. Another great man, my Morfar (Mums dad) passed away in early 2014. It was a great loss to my family because next to my dad he was the only significant male figure in my life. Now he taught me how to shoot a bow and arrow. I wanted something to represent the great impact he had on my life and I also read something about arrow tattoos which I felt was very fitting about my life which I shall repeat now.

"An arrow can only be shot by pulling it backward. So when life is dragging you back with difficulties, it means that it's going to launch you into something great. So just focus and keep aiming."

 Now onto the piercings.  I got my first hole done when I was 7. These are the earrings I always change up.

My second hole I got when I was 11. There was a huge hoo ha in my school about it, they almost expelled me as it wasn't lady like enough! My mum ever the awesome lady she is told them they were being silly and as long as I only wore small stud and taped them up for P.E. what's the issue? So they let me keep them. I usually have a small clear jewelled stud in this hole.

My next piercing I got when I was 19. This is called a Tragus piercing. You can have a 2 balled bar, ring or like me a flat back bar called a labret. The flat back makes it easier for headphones to fit.

When I was 20 I got what I'd say was my most painful and slow healing piercing. It's called a rook. It fits snugly in your ear and is not very common compared to all my others. I actually have an eyebrow bar in this hole as it's slightly curved and fits better than a straight bar, but you can also have a ring.

Now getting my belly button pierced is something I wanted since I was 16 but my ex was quite vocal saying he would not like it so I never did it. But after I dumped him I walked straight into the shop and got it done. The piercer lover the story and thought it was a perfect "F you" to my ex. I personally prefer the banana bars for my belly button and there are lots of more ornate pieces you can have, but I like to keep mine simple.

Last but not least is my Pinna/Helix piercing. I got this last year. Up until only a couple of weeks ago I had a bar in it but I much prefer the ring.

So what's next? With piercings I might have a 3rd ear lobe hole done but I'm not to sure so this might be it for me, but with tattoos I'm not done.

Even though they hurt like hell I will be adding to my star tattoo once I have my own little ones in the future and if something significant happens in my future I feel I want to represent I will do so.

Remember if you are wanting a tattoo or piercing make sure you think it though as there is nothing worse than regretting it. Also take to the piercer or tattoo artist as they're there to help and give you the best advice.

Mybs xxx

Hello Again!

Hi Everyone

Wow so it's been quite a while since I've been on here and there is a reason for it.

I GOT A NEW JOB!!!

So I'm finally out of the financial world and into the world of Estate Agency.

So all those people who told me it would be something I'd be good at were right. I'm really loving the job, but oh my gosh it's sucking the life out of me with the ridiculous hours!

I'm basically working an average of 10.5 hours a day and for a girl that suffers with chronic fatigue it's really taking it out of me.

Now is it worth it?

I'm not sure yet....

The money is terrible at the moment but everyone in the office says to me if I really get me head down, get as many sales as possible the money will start rolling in. Someone in another branch earned £5,000 in one month!

I'm lucky if I get £100 commission on top of my below minimum wage for the hours I do salary but that's because it takes months for something to exchange.

So why put myself through what can only be described as employment hell? It's simple...... The money. Me and my boyfriend Toby are frantically trying to save for the future and to be specific to buy a flat.

Now if I were by some magic chance earn 5 grand in one month the amount I could put into saving would be amazing and get me a step further to what I really want. A grown up life.

Now as I'm sitting in my bedroom in my mums house I'm just wishing myself in my own space.

So I'm taking this fantastic opportunity and going to run with it. I'm going to learn as much as I can from them and take that knowledge into my future whatever it may be, but there is no denying I have found my vocation.

So watch this space and let see how it goes!

Mybs xxx